MY LIFE STORY 

Bridge Builder

I am literally and figuratively a bridge builder. I studied Civil Engineering at TU Delft. The societal side also interested me. I also built bridges between people. I held a leadership role in the student movement. 

Career

I started as a university lecturer at TU Delft. At the Province of South Holland, I then worked in leadership positions in spatial planning, environment, and traffic. In a postgraduate course, I learned how the government should direct. I put this into practice in Rotterdam, where I developed a joint water policy with Rijkswaterstaat and the water boards involved. In Gouda, I bridged differences between government agencies, private parties, housing corporations, and action groups, which made it possible to realize a ring road, urban renewal and expansion, and a new city hall. 

The first turning point in my life

At the age of 35, I got divorced for the second time! I realized that I needed to learn something more about understanding people, otherwise this drama would keep repeating itself. In an astrology course, I discovered that people have complex characters. I had to build a bridge within myself between my ‘Sun in Scorpio’, ‘Moon is Taurus’, and ‘Ascendant in Gemini’. This insight helped me find a relationship that suited me much better. 

My second turning point

At the age of 40, I had a conflict with my boss. He intimidated his employees and perceived me, his deputy, as threatening. He broke down my self-confidence step by step. I sought help from Psychosynthesis. I intuitively wrote my ‘fairy tale of the strange bird’, in which I transformed from a parakeet into a blackbird, a stork, and finally, as an eagle, found my home high in the mountains. My guide was impressed, but gave me a follow-up assignment: I had to return to Earth to carry out my mission. I wrote that I descended into Africa where animals fought each other over the scarce amount of water. I taught them to build an irrigation system together from which they could all benefit. 

My third turning point

At the age of 49, despite pain in my neck, I participated in a guided group meditation into a past life. In a vision, I looked at a black pyramid. Suddenly, my head was chopped off from behind with an axe on a stick. I refused to accept this image and started the meditation again. Again, my head was chopped off. After the third time, I decided to just accept it. After this meditation, the pain in my neck was gone! At the next meditation meeting, I saw myself standing in the middle of a glass pyramid. I was wearing a white morning suit and opening the ball. Since then, I get a tingling in my neck when I encounter a ‘higher truth’. A bridge between heaven and earth was formed. 

My fourth turning point

At the age of 68, I put my free will at the service of the cosmos. I created a communication bridge with my spiritual guide. I used a pendulum, intuitive insights, songs in my head, tarot readings, synchronicity, dreams and visions, and wisdom from others. I built a coherent and meaningful cosmic worldview. Energy and consciousness are key concepts.